angelique romeijn
"the deeper you fall into Reality, the more you experience that the spiritual process is not about spiritual enlightenment -that has been arranged already- but about embracing your total humanity. to be above all a human being among human beings; very sober and real. perhaps a disappointment to the spiritual ego, but a grace as Reality."
- angelique -
living Reality
free of identification life is experienced directly as it is
Spiritual awakening or full-circle enlightenment is not something extraordinary or supernatural. It is super natural. It is the return to your natural state of being; that what we have always been and will always be. It is also what has adapted itself from early childhood to the likes and expectations of our environment and society. That what has identified itself with body, emotions and conditioned thinking. No wonder we cannot even imagine what it is like to be truly free. To live from our natural state of being.
Living your true nature feels good because feeling natural just does, even in moments of sorrow and sadness. It is being free from all ideas and concepts that tell you that life should be different than it is. You might have already noticed that life doesn’t really care about your ideas of what should or should not be. Life is not about pleasing you. Neither is it about upsetting you. Life is what it is, always and everywhere and that you can trust. The thing is that by holding on to your ideas of how life should be, you find yourself in conflict with yourself and/or with the world around you. Creating stress, chaos and other upheaval. By times you might even feel tired and overwhelmed, wondering if this is really all there is to life?
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Your true nature is an intelligence of silence and aliveness. It’s emptiness of a profound quality. When this intelligence wakes up from identification with the storytelling mind, there is a deep and simple ‘being okay’ with life as it is; yourself and the world around you. Even if this is far from what your personal preference is about. The way you feel also is no longer dependent on what does or does not happen in the outside world. Who you are and what you live, are free from approval and appreciation of others. Don’t confuse this with indifference or not being engaged. It is rather the opposite.
free of compulsive thinking
Waking up to Reality is accompanied by the stripping away of our false identities. Identification with our chaotic and compulsive thinking, which forms the illusion of a separate self and is not very functional. On-going loops of thinking, ever leading to the increase of our happiness.
Most of our thoughts are the same thoughts we had yesterday and the day before yesterday. They do not lead to anything real and disconnect us from reality. Like a dog chasing its own tale. Not feeling so good when in thinking-mode, is a sign that we are not in alignment with the reality of life. These two elements go together.
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It’s about being free of believing the chatter in our head with all its ideas, opinions, labelling and judgments about our self and about the world around us. Free of seeing the present moment through filters that we have accepted as the truth because of what people that raised us have been presenting us as the truth and what we have been told by the rest of society; education system, religion, governments, media, etc. and because of our own conclusions based on our experiences of a personal past. This created the experience of a separate self. A centre in a body and an inner and outer world. Fully identified with body and thinking.
We actually do not have one single original thought of our own and if we let this chaotic thinking rule us, we will be limited in life; to live it to the fullest and to experience its true beauty and freedom.
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The voice-over in our head comments on almost anything. Meanwhile keeping us away from experiencing the profound reality we live in. It loves hanging on to the past or running forward into the future. Talking to itself and by that creating the illusion of a ‘me’. Its motivation is about avoiding pain or gaining pleasure. It seeks to feel complete and fulfilled. However, it cannot succeed, as what is not real can never be completed or fulfilled.
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Furthermore, it designs stories that have nothing to do with reality as reality can only be found in the now. These stories are just based on interpretations of the past. It’s old news, nothing more and often not very interesting. However, these stories become filters through which we experience and deform the present moment. This way we are not in alignment with reality and with what is asked of us re-acting from our experiences of the past instead. No wonder that by times we find ourselves in situations of conflict and create friction in our relationships.
Imprisoned in these illusions, we are not free to live reality as it is. Reality, that can only be found in the now. The only thing we will ever have and the only thing that is really real. It is living the Truth of Life, to be experienced when we move beyond the thinking mind where life is always very okay despite joy or sadness. Truth, which reality or ‘the now’ is, always feels good even if it is painful. That is the beauty of living in the Truth.
a kind reality
It’s also the dissolution of the mind-made-illusion to be an isolated self. The mind creating the experience of being separate from others and from life altogether. The me-centre, that’s always looking for the next thing to fill up the gap of emptiness that it experiences as a lack. Never truly succeeding. At least not for long. This is how it keeps on avoiding the reality of Divine emptiness and distracting our awareness from the me-centre’s non-existence.
When the spell of this illusion breaks, by seeing through this façade, a new reality unfolds. It is a reality of a profound quality, characterised by spaciousness and kindness. It is as if coming alive anew. It truly is like waking up from a stressful and very limited dream. Now Life Itself is living what you formerly called ‘your life’. It has always already done so but now it is also experienced. Life has woken up to Itself. This brings about a whole other view on life and quality of being. Life is experienced to be a Mystery. That what It truly is.
sessions: individual sessions are focussed on the direct experience of Being and Truth.
art: illustrated poetry, quotes, poems
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